is this the end of relationships as we know them?

what if relationships simply do not work as we think they do...what if this whole idea of romance and love and falling in and out of love is just another attempt to define a state of the soul?

just think about it...you see people around you, holding hands and you can't help but wonder why at others everything seems easy...why do you, you of all people, have to work really hard to get what you wish for...i mean it's not that much you ask anyways...all you want is what every body else seems to have: love, peace, complicity, understanding....

when it comes down to actually doing it...trying to figure out your boundaries...when you finally completed your safety circle you see it's kind of square and it has dark corners you never predicted...

you go through life trying to label everything and every one...but you can't even seem to put yourself in the right place...and all the wrong choices come from the past to poke you in your calm and, for the moment, satisfied ass...then what??

there is no right path or secret ingredient...as i have come to realize...there is no textbook relationship...how we handle ourselves with the person closest to our soul is our choice alone...it's up to us what a relationship makes...and it's up to you to figure out your deal breaker...

how do you know when enough is enough? why do you want more than that feeling that you have? what is with this constant need of safety and certainty? do we define ourselves or the cravings that linger in the "what if's" ? how do you know you won't have to share and, in the end, what do you actually know?

do you know what you want and exactly how you want it? do you have your whole life set out for yourself? or does yet another relationship gone bad get you even more determined not to give in a single inch...do you actually want a relationship or the feeling?

careful girl cause you might just end up in a relationship with the relationship and your boy sipping another coffee... and you might have to consider your options and get your priorities checked...are you up for everything or something more ?