up'n running

i'll be waiting 'till the sky falls down
'till you come around
....baby

brighter side...

you let go...start to unwind for the first time in months and right after you finish your coffee and think to yourself it's gonna be a great day after all...it hits you once again...only this time it came out of the fuckin' blue...

you try to convince yourself it's not that bad...you dig deep down hoping to find the one good thing that might come of this...as i sad...you try...too goddamn much...and you don't seem able to do it...

take a sip of coffee and lay back...light that shit and pass it on...

i wake up in the morning and put on my face...

i don't wanna be...

did you ever try to do things a certain way hoping they'll turn out ok? trying to follow every one's advice and ignoring your instincts?

Stop!!!

...hang in for dear life and stop wondering if you're doing the right thing...no more external interventions...

as for me...i'm doing it my way...coping with things the only way i know...throwing in the disappointmens and taking everything else in...i'm letting myself go, cuz it's the only way i'll ever be able to find myself again...

i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been lately...

allergy

did you ever wake up to finding your eyes in tears, your nose itching and hardly being able to breathe?

undisclosed desires

you wake up one morning to find yourself all grown up, facing life with its problems, joys and responsibilities...

at the end of the day you have the boy, the love, the happiness...

and you wake up...or...better said...you're forced to wake up...cup of coffee right in front of you...no boy...love still there...fighting for happiness...

try having a healthy relationship with yourself first...then go get the boy back!!!



as for me...alone...after what seems like for ever...doing exactly the things you don't even dare to think of...and when i'm done, i'm getting my boy back!

because I CAN