ever since you could remember all you wished for was a calm, happy, game-free life...
you got to experience drama to last you a lifetime, you got to play, be played, cheat, got cheated on, you've lied and been lied to...despite all that you never ceased to see the good in people, you never stopped putting yourself out there...
looking back it's been a hell of a ride, constantly looking over your shoulder, always paying attention to every single detail, watching your tongue and always on guard...you never knew what'll jump you right around the corner...you never could've imagined the stories you'll be able to tell about love, and treachery, trust, deceit, deception and euphoria...
at the end of the day consider yourself lucky if you fall asleep next to the one person you feel you can let your guard down...for relationships may be tricky, but in the end, whom you trust can be fatal...
Friday, July 27, 2012
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
the quest
do you know that feeling of complete satisfaction at the end of the day when you've got all the shit you were supposed to do done? well...you're lucky...today I just found out how that feels...
facing a window, with a clean desk around you, all the tasks are done for the day...what's left is to sit back and feel proud of yourself...proud on how you handled things these past few months, proud of the person you've grown into...it's not like you've ever imagined you'd grow a conscience...never in your wildest dreams did you picture yourself as a stand-up person, who, not even after all the drama, lies, cheating, speaks her mind...stands up for what she believes in...came around to telling nothing but the truth...and finally someone who doesn't take bullshit from anyone!
what tops this continuous feeling of pride and exhilaration? that warm feeling you're home, not in a place, but in someone's tight arms around you...
it happens when you least expect it...you do your job, you finish that book, you catch up with old friends, and you fall in love again...
as for me...i'm in the mood for some late night Louboutins...
facing a window, with a clean desk around you, all the tasks are done for the day...what's left is to sit back and feel proud of yourself...proud on how you handled things these past few months, proud of the person you've grown into...it's not like you've ever imagined you'd grow a conscience...never in your wildest dreams did you picture yourself as a stand-up person, who, not even after all the drama, lies, cheating, speaks her mind...stands up for what she believes in...came around to telling nothing but the truth...and finally someone who doesn't take bullshit from anyone!
what tops this continuous feeling of pride and exhilaration? that warm feeling you're home, not in a place, but in someone's tight arms around you...
it happens when you least expect it...you do your job, you finish that book, you catch up with old friends, and you fall in love again...
as for me...i'm in the mood for some late night Louboutins...
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
desire, dress, impress
when does missing someone turn into something more than mere longing to see that person? when does it get enough just to picture, imagine, almost feel?
someone once told me that just knowing that the possibility is out there, just withing reach, is enough...back then i couldn't wrap my mind around the idea..i mean, just get this: you are in control of your feelings, desires, cravings, realizing everything is possible makes it less desirable and more of an actual fact...you don't need to actually get out and get it if you're absolutely positively sure it's attainable...
on that note...reconsider your heart's desire and set higher goals for yourself!
as for me...i think i wanna wear this Three Floor dress to the upcoming August wedding...
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
what if i wanna be a purse...or a hat?
no...i'm not bipolar...your ranking system doesn't even begin to describe the level of polarity i am capable of...
in a world where it's better to be considered a bitch rather than a virgin, where honesty and true friendship are one of those rare long-lost values, what do you do when facing a decision?
what if the person you love and the item of your infatuation are two sides of a never-ending bickering about false expectations and ruined dreams...you cannot expect someone to give up everything they are and everything they have just to do the right thing!
people don't change...they develop into the person they're designed to be...you're born with an unique set of characteristics that are influenced by everything you experience...your behavior, your principles, even those tiny ideas you consider your own are mere imprints of the world upon your existence...
so instead of picturing how the object of your expectation will shift into the perfect something, try to do a little work on yourself and improve those little things that make you...well...you!
as for me...today i'm at a loss...i can't decide between a Furstenberg or vintage Chanel...
in a world where it's better to be considered a bitch rather than a virgin, where honesty and true friendship are one of those rare long-lost values, what do you do when facing a decision?
what if the person you love and the item of your infatuation are two sides of a never-ending bickering about false expectations and ruined dreams...you cannot expect someone to give up everything they are and everything they have just to do the right thing!
people don't change...they develop into the person they're designed to be...you're born with an unique set of characteristics that are influenced by everything you experience...your behavior, your principles, even those tiny ideas you consider your own are mere imprints of the world upon your existence...
so instead of picturing how the object of your expectation will shift into the perfect something, try to do a little work on yourself and improve those little things that make you...well...you!
as for me...today i'm at a loss...i can't decide between a Furstenberg or vintage Chanel...
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
poker, love and other accessories
you're on the edge of two worlds...both equally fucked up...you get to keep yourself in one...and the other one turns you into something...something not even you know what...
staying true to your habits, to your morning coffee, your daily routine, your hopes and wishes, getting to go out every single night and not give a fuck...
on the other hand...who wouldn't follow their strong, silly instincts? who wouldn't jump into a pool of uncertainty and get by one day at a time? not knowing what'll happen, not knowing if what your gut is telling you is actually true, not knowing if giving a fuck will actually work to your advantage this time...not knowing where all this is heading, past actions and events being the only certainty...
you learned the hard way to trust your instincts, but the universe has its special way of sending you goddamn scrambled messages...one moment you're as confident as one can be given the circumstances, only to fall even lower upon the next turn of events...
communication was never your best skill...let's get real...who in their right mind would willingly give up information? thus putting themselves in a vulnerable spot by choice...but when you start talking, when you use only accurate facts, true stories and you put your cards on the table and you don't get the same in return what do you do? do you check or do you fold?
as for me...i'm waiting for an iced coffee and wishing a Vintage Hermes Scarf to go with my puppy eyes
staying true to your habits, to your morning coffee, your daily routine, your hopes and wishes, getting to go out every single night and not give a fuck...
on the other hand...who wouldn't follow their strong, silly instincts? who wouldn't jump into a pool of uncertainty and get by one day at a time? not knowing what'll happen, not knowing if what your gut is telling you is actually true, not knowing if giving a fuck will actually work to your advantage this time...not knowing where all this is heading, past actions and events being the only certainty...
you learned the hard way to trust your instincts, but the universe has its special way of sending you goddamn scrambled messages...one moment you're as confident as one can be given the circumstances, only to fall even lower upon the next turn of events...
communication was never your best skill...let's get real...who in their right mind would willingly give up information? thus putting themselves in a vulnerable spot by choice...but when you start talking, when you use only accurate facts, true stories and you put your cards on the table and you don't get the same in return what do you do? do you check or do you fold?
as for me...i'm waiting for an iced coffee and wishing a Vintage Hermes Scarf to go with my puppy eyes
Friday, July 6, 2012
glasses and sun...
were you ever under the impression all the drama's about to end? you could almost smell the relief crawling from behind...
then you went and followed your instincts...stuff happened...things were said...and as you woke up the morning after...the heart wrenching feeling of guilt and disappointment wasn't there...you poured yourself a cup of coffee...lit up a cigarette and waited...for something to happen, for your instincts to tell you to get the fuck out of there cuz everything's a trap...
no survival instincts activated, after a sleepless night and several energy drinks later...all you can think of is that it's gonna be ok...it might even turn out better than you have ever expected it to...
you might need an umbrella...they announced a touch of rain with a heavy chance of bullshit later on today...here's to people finally speaking their mind...and for those about to start climbing out of your denial nest...i salute you!
as for me...i'm craving McQueen today...blame it on the cat-mood
then you went and followed your instincts...stuff happened...things were said...and as you woke up the morning after...the heart wrenching feeling of guilt and disappointment wasn't there...you poured yourself a cup of coffee...lit up a cigarette and waited...for something to happen, for your instincts to tell you to get the fuck out of there cuz everything's a trap...
no survival instincts activated, after a sleepless night and several energy drinks later...all you can think of is that it's gonna be ok...it might even turn out better than you have ever expected it to...
you might need an umbrella...they announced a touch of rain with a heavy chance of bullshit later on today...here's to people finally speaking their mind...and for those about to start climbing out of your denial nest...i salute you!
as for me...i'm craving McQueen today...blame it on the cat-mood
Thursday, July 5, 2012
it's about time
mkay...it's summer..usually...it's what you've been waiting for 9 months...not this year...cuz when summer ends all hell breaks loose...you have your thesis due, you have to find a place to live, a job, a perfect graduation dress, shoes...and thus all sorts of issues arise...
the end of an era was a week ago, when facing the unexpected, you decide to throw a party..then attend one..then procrastinate until the end of time...
i'm gonna keep it short and tell you my wishes for this summer...to find the time to go swimming...managing to get to the seaside...finishing my paper on time...graduating...and, to top it all...this magnificent Michael Kors watch to keep me grounded...
ice coffee, a perfect tan [very unlikely], new shoes and the beginning of a new era...
the end of an era was a week ago, when facing the unexpected, you decide to throw a party..then attend one..then procrastinate until the end of time...
i'm gonna keep it short and tell you my wishes for this summer...to find the time to go swimming...managing to get to the seaside...finishing my paper on time...graduating...and, to top it all...this magnificent Michael Kors watch to keep me grounded...
ice coffee, a perfect tan [very unlikely], new shoes and the beginning of a new era...
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