maybe i don't wanna be a shoe...

Did you ever get that feeling that totally froze you up inside? the stupid feeling of anxiety up to the point you'd rather smash your head against the wall than do a certain thing?

and you did it anyway...it was just like ripping off a band-aid...quick and painstabbing...

you got your ass on that train...went to a certain place you might call home...usual faces...same blinding lights...same feeling...good old friends...same beer...coffee...lots of coffee...

and you go out and try to have fun...and you finally get what you'd wished for...only it came too goddamn late...

then life takes you by surprise...and you go to places you've never seen before...new people but still only one...the one?? who knows...and you discover new sides to the same story...different versions of your same-old life...different feelings from within...

it's a trip...what can i say?... and you sit and wonder how did you get so lucky as all this things come your way...

well...good things come to those who make'em happen...and, as a dear and close person once said...

the hardest think you have to do is taking that first step, after that...the rest will follow....

and it does...with each day changing, renewing itself, growing...